Almost Finished Re-reading!


I’m almost done re-reading this novel. Total page count is 356, just like the original first book. I’m on Chapter 27. Still haven’t figured out if I’ll keep it the same price range $9.99 or if I’ll lower the price to $8.99. With all the work I’ve put in I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore.


The sequel has 40 Chapters by the way… and I’m so eager to finish, so I can call in quits.


I’ve been at work pretty much all day and I’m just restless. Tomorrow and Monday are my days off and I just want to sleep. Almost missed paying a bill this week, due to such a hectic schedule. It’s just been a crazy nightmare so far. Not to mention, lots of drama and gossiping at work.

There’s just rumors about me everywhere, but I’m too exhausted to care. I’m going to complete the remaining chapters and then I’m going to decide if I should let my sister read this sequel.

In addition, I’ve completed the final book cover as well, including the most important part––the back of the book, which has the story blurb. I just hope it’s interesting enough to hook people into reading it. I didn’t want to give away too much, so I’m praying it works. However, I didn’t want to be too vague and nobody have a clue as to what I was talking about.

Here’s the new summary for Volume 2:

IMAGINE EVERY NIGHT YOU WISH NEVER TO FALL ASLEEP… For once you close your eyes the unthinkable horrors plague your mind, your sanity.

For Zander Russell, Cougar High school is hell. Nothing is going right. Considered an outcast to society, he has no friends just enemies. Until… he meets a man dressed in black, named Rue Chang.

Rue has it all: wealth, happiness, and good looks.  

Zander knows nothing about Rue or his true intentions. Who is he? What does he want? Where does he come from? And why does he keep showing up?

Rue knows everything about Zander’s life, including his family and all his secrets. He claims he can give the boy a better life. Zander is now faced with two choices: trust a stranger he barely even knows or live with his rare condition forever.

Is this too good to be true? And what are the consequences if Zander accepts the terms?

A bit dizzy

It sounds a lot better than the old one. So, I might stick to it or I might tweak it a little before I publish it. Still looking for an editor though. That’ll be interesting, once I get the feedback from my sister first. It’ll be greeat!

Then, I’m going to go ahead with the trilogy and start revising that little gem as well. I think the hardest part will be organizing everything in order. It’s kind of funny, because I don’t know where to start. But it’ll be interesting. I’ve written some extra chapters for the trilogy and the other books as well. We’ll see how it goes. Right now, I need to get some rest. Goodnight everyone!

I'm dead

Character Flaws: More Tragic Than My Main Character?


I’m so close to finishing this sequel, folks.  I really am!


Last night…well, this morning, I stayed up late and completed Act 2. Mostly organizing and editing each chapter for plot inconsistencies. Everything is linear…somewhat. We get a few chapters of the past as well, but there’s enough of a fluid transition to ease right back into the present. Yesterday, I did reach Act 3, but I didn’t want to stop. Some of my friends were telling me I needed to go to bed. :P I didn’t listen.

Anyway, I did get some sleep finally. But I’m on Chapter 30 or 31, depending on how it goes. I’ve been on a roll for quite some time, which is why I’m afraid to get started on it right now, since I’ll be going to work soon. I only have a few more edits and rewrites to do, and that’s it. I AM DONE! Regardless of how this one ends, I’ll be moving on with the trilogy and continuing on (or pretending) that I didn’t have a big section break in between.

BrokenheartedOne character that I’m working really hard on, is very three dimensional… is just… I can’t describe it. Just groundbreaking. In three words: heartbreaking, absorbing, and frightening all at the same time. I’m not bragging. I’m trying so hard not to give any details about this one and ruin it for you. I think I really outdid myself with this one. This character I’ve created is just so fascinating that every time I talk about them, I want to find out more about what happens.

Yes, my main character is interesting to… but for once in the story, he’s off to the side. But not in a bad way, in fact, the story still keeps on moving forward. This character will not only be as engaging as the others, but more compelling and sympathetic. The issues they represent or are going through will be a tough one for some people to read. A lot of the plot will be about what I’ve been seeing on the news lately.

Once I finish this sequel, I’ll be putting it away for a month or so….maybe. I kinda want to spend my time editing it next month, and hire an editor anyway. I don’t know if I’ll be competing in NaNo this year. I’ve got two novels I want to finally revise (complete) finish, end, put to rest, get it over with…you get the idea. This month and next. The sequel and the trilogy will be absolutely––definitely completed! There is no going back now. This is it.

ShockingGet ready everyone. It’s going to be truly shocking!

Day 4 of Vac: Snail Progress…

Let me just think...I seem to be stuck on a few things for my sequel…

...and it happens to deal with one of the characters.

Ouch!With all the research I’m doing lately, something doesn’t fit right in this jigsaw puzzle I’m working on. This is going to be a can of worms as soon as I bring this character out into the light. Hope I can manage, especially on my vacation. I’m supposed to be taking it easy, I guess.

So many questions, so little time. Just praying that I can get this book done on time. One thing’s for sure though, once I get all my credit card bills paid off, I’m going to be hiring a few editors and some artists. I want to first finish everything before I do anything else though.

Report's gone..A bit of bad news

Amazon’s kindle lending library program (say that 3 times fast!) hasn’t been working out so far for me. Nothing’s happening and everyday I wait and wait. I’ll keep checking for a couple more days, either before or after, I announce the special ebook sale coming up soon.

I’ll try to monitor it as best as I can. I mostly look at my sales once a week or so, but I may do that once a month instead. I’m just hoping it works. If nothing changes, once the three months are up, I will not bother continuing with it. Maybe when I publish my sequel… I’ll try again, perhaps?

More Chapters. It Just Keeps Getting Longer & Longer!


I should be sleeping, not staying up and writing till the break of dawn. But I can’t help it!

A bit dizzy

There’s just so much I have to finish. I wrote ten pages this morning and that’s just the beginning. I have at least 17 missing spots for these scenes/chapters, not to mention, I have so many floating chapters that need to be shortened, extended, taken out, arranged, and re-arranged for the final setup draft, which is still a rough copy.

Eventually, I’ll have to put these additional chapters in the trilogy and continue where I left off. The page count is now 390. Luckily, I know what needs to be added. But not what needs to be taken out. I’ve written little notes to myself while I was reading the sequel. There are certain plot points that don’t make sense or fit in the context of particular situations.

There are too many flashbacks in this one. I noticed a pattern here…some jumping back and forth from one character to the next. I have other characters that need a lot of attention. So far, I can positively say… it’s looking good, since I know what needs to be added, in order for the story to make sense in a linear structure.

What’s not good is the length…and some other things, I won’t get into at the moment. ^^; So once again, I’ll have to decide how I’m going to do this. I probably need to keep it as simple as possible. I feel like I’m rushing some scenes and I really hate that. I’m going back and adding as much detail as possible, without going overboard with it. I’m trying so hard to show emotions, but I feel like I’m just repeating myself. How many times can I describe sadness or anger? I’ve highlighted phrases I love to say way too many times! Even I say them on my blog––it’s getting annoying for me to see and read them. I’ll be cutting back on my adjectives and making sure I don’t sound like a broken record. Easier said than done, right?

I hope I’m not becoming like Stephen King, describing everything, even blades of grass. :( I just need to focus on what’s important: location, setting, characters, and emotions. I do try to describe people’s apparel, but it’s gotten to the point when I describe a person once, I don’t feel like talking about their clothes again… unless it’s like a special dress for an event or important occasion or something. I’ll be avoiding the whole “what is she wearing?” trend. Is it stylish?

Just going to stick to sight, smell, taste, sound, and touch. Whatever characters were introduced in the first novel… I will not be re-introducing them over and over, in really long paragraphs, about how they look and what they wear. I’m cutting right to the chase and hitting it off with dialogue, action, and story. I don’t really care if readers (who didn’t read the first book) don’t know what these characters look like exactly. I’d prefer it if people just use their imagination.

Thinking About KDP Select. Should I Try It or Avoid It At All Costs?

Hmm...let's see nowI was just reading Amazon’s KDP terms today and noticed something I didn’t notice before.

ContemplatingFor the longest time, I have opted not to place my ebook into KDP Select… or never considered Kindle Unlimited, due to a program in place that lets people borrow books through a library lending system. They’re one in the same, except one is for authors while the other is for book lovers.

I’ve read lots of blogs about the pros and cons of KDP and UK. Most warning about the dangers of Amazon, abusing their indie authors by exploiting their weaknesses… by some PR move (or stunt) of getting more readers to read their undiscovered gems. To help indie authors find their own niche in the world––I’m saying that term loosely. I’ve realized now that I can still sell my book through other outlets as long as its the physical copy itself; however, it can’t be the digital format.

So many fears of the unknown. As a nobody author, who has nothing to really gain or lose by choosing the KDP… I’m going to try the KDP Select for 90 days (or a month) and see what happens. I know I won’t get much, but it’s just a chance I’m going to have to take. Don’t know what the results will be, whether it’ll be good or bad. I’ll keep you updated about how I’m doing.


Still Waiting…

Waiting Here...

So, I’m still waiting for someone to call me for my mac repairs…


It’s been nearly five days and there seems to be a delay in the process. All I can do now is just hold on.

All the world's a stageI’m officially broke. This week money has been going out like water. I’ve had to pay to get the damaged hard drive…to get it fixed and a new external hard drive and a upgrade. Had to pay for a new pair of glasses, since they cracked yesterday.


The only good buy I made was a tablet. Finally! It’s a dream come true. Been using it for two days. I’m loving it so far.

But then, I look at the price tag…



I’ll be dead somewhere… I'm dead

Too Much Doubt. Too Many Worries. Too Much To Think About.

Shocked!I found out some of my links are not working properly, so I’ve had to go back and make a few adjustments.

Sweatdrop...The link to Erebus Horror and my book interview have been fixed. I don’t know why they weren’t going directly to the site, but it’s done now.

...In other news, work has been––YEAH, let’s not talk about it! I’ve been stressed out about a lot of things lately and I cannot indulge on why. It’s just a very very long story. An epic story that I don’t want to get into right now. It will probably bore you to heck anyway.

Progress on my sequel seems to have come to a complete standstill. I love the first and second parts of NR, even the third segment is great. However, the fourth and fifth sections of my book have become a little difficult for me. I don’t know why, but they have. I did a drawing last couple of weeks ago and every time I come to that particular chapter, that creepy image is right in my face. Staring at me! It’s kinda scary. I never thought I’d outdo myself with that one.

I’m not a great artist though. I try and all, and yet I can only do so much. I was just experimenting with brushes and textures in Photoshop and thought I’d make something different for a change. If you ever saw this picture, you’d flip. I’m usually not a fan of such depictions or morbid creatures, but I seriously must have been having a field day ( a brainstorm).

Never have I made such a disturbing drawing before. I will not show it here, because I seriously don’t want to give anyone nightmares tonight. I love NR to death! But it pains me to continue working on such a dark story. All the world's a stageIt really does take a lot out of me. Physically, emotionally, and spiritually. So, it is with a heavy heart that I will have to take a break from NR for a bit longer, until I can get my Writing Mojo back. Mentally, I’ve been in a state of catatonic shock. Going day to day like routine as though I’m not here––it’s like I’m practically invisible sometimes.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Maybe I’m just lonely? Maybe I’m sad or something? I don’t know! I don’t know why it’s taking me so long. Some part of me wants to get this over with. I hate to complain. Don’t want to sound like some whining brat either! Let’s get this straight––I’m not complaining! There’s so many things in life that I’m grateful for. I’m truly blessed!

Anyhoo, I have a feeling I may not be able to keep up with this blog. Sorry to sound so depressed, folks! Things are just so-so for me. I’ve always said, “I live to write and write to live.” However, I’ve got nothing to really live for. Okay, maybe that’s not entirely true. Except maybe family and the few friends I have. I don’t have a life people! :|

Oh well, beggars can’t be choosers. It could always get worse, couldn’t it?  Right?

Report's gone..*Sighs*

Here’s a list of Some of The Things In This Sequel That Aren’t Jiving With Me:

  1. Conflicted Personalities. Many of the characters’ arc has changed over the course of the novel. The characters that were once sympathetic are no longer emphasized as much. This is a huge NO! NO! for me. You see characters in another perspective, including all their horrible flaws.
  2. The Timeline jumps around way too often. I think I’ve said this before, but I hate the timeline. In the beginning it’s not that bad, however, it’s getting to the point that leaving dates out makes it even worse. Having dates is confusing enough, but not having any timelines will leave everyone in the dark. They’ll be asking about who, how, where, and WHEN this all took place.
  3. New characters are a pain in my butt! I like them all, but not enough to give them a book of their own. A friend of mine recommended that I should just write more sequels, starting off with a new character. It sounded like a wonderful idea at the time… but the more I thought about it, the less inclined I was to do it. One main character is enough! Having multiple main characters is way too much. I’m not competing to be the next George R.R. Martin. I really am not!
  4. The Writing Flow is up and down. In the first novel, I had a distinctive voice and style. Now, it seems with so many voices in my head, I’ve been struggling to keep the flow together. Once I get a character down, I can do wonders, and yet I don’t want to have characters repeating the same thing or actions as another character. Repetition is another factor. I hate the feeling as if I’m repeating the same words, scenery, and events over and over again in my head.
  5. Formatting the book’s interior has been nothing but a nightmare to me. Due to new characters’ input (including voices) I can’t seem to decide how the interior should look exactly. I’m slowly getting there…but for some reason the format is bothering my eyes to the point that I’m having trouble reading some parts. It could be my eyes or just plain fatigue. One time, it took me a whole day to get the correct format down for NR just so Createspace could finally load it in book form and preview it to me. What a waste! I should’ve spent that time writing, but the format had to be done for me to continue.
  6. Last one! Continuity.  I’ve got most of this correct, so far! I hope! Except certain scenes that go back into the past seem to be lacking a bit of continuity or transition from one event to another or one place to another. I’ll eventually figure it out, I think?

black circles under my eyes...Many, many things to take into consideration with this sequel. Even though I’ve been going to the gym and getting some exercise, I can’t help but feel as something is wrong with this book. Or is there something wrong with me?  I don’t know…

Hopefully, my next post will be less depressing and more hopeful and engaging.


Just Too Many Distractions!

A bit dizzy

Too many things to do, too many worries, too many ideas to sort through. Just too much on my mind!


Two years have passed and I can’t finish this blasted sequel.


What is wrong with me?

Am I too tired?

Am I bored with writing?

Am I not getting enough rest?

Am I too stressed out?

Why can’t I finish this sequel on time?

I can’t even finish 20 pages! 20 pages, folks!

Is it writer’s block?

Is it fear?

Is it the thought of me not doing good enough?

Is it indecisiveness ’cause I suffer from that a lot?

The reason I wrote Nightmarish Reality was because I was suffering from nightmares I couldn’t explain. Now that the book has been written (it’s been nearly 2 years since it’s been published), most if not all of my nightmares are gone. Although, that doesn’t mean they’ll never come back. So, why is it that I cannot finish the sequel. Will it live up to the first book…? Even though not many people really know about it? Will I make the sequel worse? Will I make it better?

These are a handful of questions, out of a million, that swirl through my mind all the time. However, no matter how hard I try… I feel that something in this sequel is seriously missing. Am I rushing certain scenes? Is there not enough explanations? Why do I feel trapped?