This is me editing last night and this morning pages 11 – 157…
This is me waking up at 8 a.m. and looking at my computer.
This is me looking at my book proof with all my markings.
THIS IS MY INNER EDITOR FOLKS!
THIS WILL BE ME IF I CONTINUE EDITING!
I’m physically exhausted. No amount of words can tell you how fatigue I am right now. I just talked to my mother over the phone and I told her I cannot continue editing. There comes a point in a writer’s life where all the amount of editing will not save you. I was more afraid that I messed up pages 11-157! I am totally serious. 😐 I will not go back to look at it. Luckily, the rest of the book can be salvaged. The 209 pages left!
Yesterday, after I finished the 100 mistakes, I ended up going back. However, this time it’s different. I am physically sick now. I do not see myself spending another 3-4 days at home sitting at my computer re-reading a zillion times and re-re-re-editing. THIS IS IT! THIS IS FINAL!
I just sent out my cover/interior to be reviewed by Createspace for the final time. I will be ordering another book proof; however, I will only check it for minor copy-editing issues and to make sure that the images/text came out readable. THAT IS ALL! I’ve come to the point where I can not longer look at my book proof. Over-editing is what I’m going to be doing and I may end up making things worse.
I know that I will never be perfect! I AM NOT PERFECT! Let’s just be honest here… there will be some tiny mistakes. I’ve tried to fix the major mistakes! I really have. If you don’t like it folks, that’s fine. Just to let you know I gave it my all. I gave my 150%! I can’t make people like my book and I can’t force anyone to give me bad reviews or good reviews.
It is what it is… a novel. It is my first novel, but no matter if this was book 12… I would be telling you guys the same thing. My inner editor (kinda like OCD) is telling me I can do better! It’s not getting any better than this. I need to move on, I need rest, and I don’t want to look at this book. If you find a mistake and you tell me, I’m not going back. Seriously! I am becoming physically ill every time I go back to edit. I will continue to go back no matter if I have a list or a chart of my progress. It is my inner editor that will drive me to DEATH!
For those of you who have just started watching me, let me tell you a little something about my novel. Yes, this is a psychological/horror book series. However… this is not a mainstream kind of book (s). It’s not all horror by the way, not this first book anyway. Yes, there are some scary moments and some creepy ones, but there will be some down times and some up moments that will leave you like WTF?! No, there will not be huge explosions taking place! No car chases! No scary monsters! Please be patient. This is not a BOO GOTACHA kind of story!
There is a Disclaimer on this book. Here it is folks! I cannot stress this enough.
THIS WILL BE ON ALL THREE BOOKS BY THE WAY!
HERE’S A LIST OF WHAT’S NOT IN THIS BOOK:
- NO Bestiality!!
- No child pornography!
- No dead babies
- No raping of dead bodies… ewww!
- No zombies
- No sparkling vampires… or any vampires for that matter 😐
- No werewolves
- No gore
- No sadistic torture
- No explosions… I said this already!
- No car chases …. this too!
- No Mary and Gary Sues!! Seriously! There are none, so please go and read something else.
- No mainstream thriller with loads of action
- No slasher horror!
- No blood spray or dismembering of limbs and such.
- No force-reading of information dealing with plot-line.
- No ghosts or ghouls
WHAT’S REALLY IN THIS BOOK?
- Nightmares… obviously!
- School bullying
- Strong sexual issues/situations
- Adult themes
- Adult language
- Identity issues
- Religious themes about God
- Violence… and quite possibly rape
- Controversial issues… since I can’t think of anything else.
- Real life situations
- Realistic scenarios… I think?
- Three-dimensional characters.
- Pretty safe… not really 😐
- Some ignorant/ugly characters
- Family problems
- This isn’t your happy happy joy joy book either!
- Drama, drama, drama!
- Lots of mystery/suspense… with little clues
- Lots of reading in between the lines
- Quite possibly some interesting/boring scenes
Hopefully, this will answer the majority of questions about what my story has and doesn’t have. If that doesn’t answer your questions, I am not giving you any more than that. Like I have stated many times before. You will either like it or you won’t. I cannot stress this enough.
This will be me in the next couple of days…
I really need a vacation!