Deleting One Account: Bye Google Plus!

So long Google Plus! Goodbye forever!

Bye bye!

After how many hundreds upon hundreds of posts, you’ve done nothing for me really. I’ve decided to delete you.

Swift Fan Attack!

Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t you but me…I actually don’t need you anymore. In fact, I never needed you at all. Not to mention, your features were confusing as hell. Half of my posts were always private and it took me ages to figure out why.

What’s the point of staying when nobody sees any of my posts? Why are my posts always hidden, even after making them public. Maybe it wasn’t me. Maybe it was you all along. My page was public to all, but you had to censor my links and my posts. Sure, I got a couple of page views. Anyway, it’s too late now…

By the way, I’ve switched over to Gab which is ten times better.

No censorship whatever!

Hero Time!

They’re setting up a place for writers and I’ll be joining them soon.

Adios Google Plus.


Back To Editing Chapter 1 Again… Starting All Over.

I was reading George Orwell’s 1984 novel and it’s so dark and so very good.


I still haven’t finished it, but I really love the writing style and how well it flows.

I may save it for a rainy day whenever I get stuck somewhere…

Scratching my buttFor some reason, 1984 was enough to inspire me. To get back into the habit of writing again. I had a lot of issues with self-doubt and whether I could ever be good enough. I read parts of my sequel, Nightmarish Revelations, to see how bad my writing was… I’m shocked that I ended up liking certain chapters. 

No matter how hard I try, I’ll always find mistakes in my writing. However, I seriously need to stop thinking of the past and just move on already. I so badly want to finish NR and the series, but I’ve been in such a strange funk. Maybe it was writer’s block or I was feeling burnt out. Anyway, I actually went back and started re-editing the accursed thing a few days ago.

I redid the first chapter and made a couple of changes, trying to perfect it. It reads a lot better now. But I’ll probably spend a couple of days doing some revising. Technically, I was supposed to be out of town, but I have to wait for an important call first. We’ll see how it goes.

I may eventually post some of the chapters or the drawings Nicoy did for the third novel. Who knows?

It’s Been Awhile Since I’ve Updated For NR…

It’s been a long time, since I’ve written anything on this site. 


It’s been like what? A month now?


I was on hiatus for a little bit, but now I’m back…err…sort of. However, despite the fact that I love writing and blogging, I haven’t really figured out what I should write about these days. Should I talk about not so important things? Movies? TV? Should I talk about books instead? The ones I’ve read?

It’s kind of sad actually now that I think about it. I used to be able to blog daily on just about anything, but seeing as not a lot of people read nor comment on this site, then what’s the point? 


I’m running out of ideas for what to talk about or even discuss.

I wish I could post more important topics, like the ones on Twitter. But that would defeat the whole Author’s Blog, now wouldn’t it? I have no idea what I’m going to do. There’s plenty of blogs here on WordPress that report the daily news and social issues going on in the world today. Maybe I should do some remodeling of the site and see where that leads me.

It would be nice if I could explain more about my experiences with the graphic novel, but there’s not much to really talk about. Everything has been going good lately. I’ve been trying to focus just on the graphic novel and update the newer site, but progress is kind of slow. I also don’t want to reveal so much about the project, since Nicoy and I aren’t even done yet.

What to do? What to do?


Is this the end of my blogging days?

I haven’t looked at the third novel of NR. Always feeling tired nowadays. Haven’t really kept up with DA either. Everything’s so different now. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve changed. Sometimes, I wish I could be a journalist and report the news, since there’s always something out there to report on. Every day there’s a different story. I dunno… maybe I’m burnt out?


I need something to do… 

Maybe I’ll go outside and exercise for an hour.


Freedom of Speech Will Not Die. I Will Not Be Silenced!

“I’d rather die standing than live on my knees.”

Angry as Hell

It's my duty!

Those famous last words still echo throughout the internet tonight and forever more. 12 people died yesterday. 4 of them were satirical cartoonists. Usually, I don’t post about the daily news or anything relating to the news whatsoever, because let’s face it––it’s fucking depressing!

OMG!The three topics never to be discussed out in the open or on my author’s blog are usually Sex, Religion, and Politics. I just don’t like talking about them, due to the fact that it opens a can of worms. Maybe even death threats. But… maybe I should start talking about them. I write about these topics daily in my stories, right from events in the news and about what’s going on in the world. The War on Women. The War on Cartoons. The War on Free Speech.

Hero Time!So far, I haven’t drawn any political cartoons to grant A Wanted Poster or my imminent death. Not yet anyway. I greatly admire those four cartoonists. They had the balls to do what nobody else did, despite the consequences, even in the face of death. I have the feeling I will be killed for writing controversial subjects as well. As a writer, we too can be threatened for just writing a book or a novel.

If anyone’s noticed my Twitter account has exploded with drawings, images, and videos expressing the right to express ourselves, please don’t be afraid. I haven’t lost my mind. I’m just really passionate right now. Actually, I’m pretty mad, so I may make some drawings of my own. I’m in the mood to write like I’ve never written before. It’s as if my life depends on it now. Life is so short and fleeting these days.

Without the ability to express ourselves with music, art, drawings, pictures, and so on… the world is a dead place, especially without satire. It’s just sad that such a tragedy had to take place in France. I’ve been to France before and it’s a lovely place. Was hoping to go back there again, but I dunno when that’ll happen. Really wanted to see Paris and The Eiffel Tower. I’m hoping that more and more people fight against oppression. I have every right to draw, write, and create things that may––No, wait a tick… It will offend you! I will make it my job to offend people. But does that mean, you should kill me for it?

I probably shouldn’t be saying things like this on my blog… you know what, screw that! I’m going to say whatever I feel like and not be afraid of what all of you are probably thinking. Someday, I will be assassinated for what I draw, write––for what I believe in. I believe it’s right to express yourself. You may be killed for what you believe in too, for even reading this blog. Let that soak in for a bit.

Don’t you get what the terrorists are trying to do? They are trying to stop Freedom of Speech, Freedom of Press, Freedom of Everything. If everyone in the entire world stood up to the mad fanatics, extremists of religion, mostly Islam. There! I said it! Then, maybe the world would be a better place to live in. Let me repeat myself. I don’t like Islam, for many many reasons.

However, I don’t believe that everyone who believes in a God or who has a religion are bad people. You’ve got extremists in all other religions such as Christianity, Buddhism, and Hinduism, etc etc. I’ll make this loud and clear. I don’t believe all muslims are terrorists or bad either, even though it just seems like the good ones, the 10% of them or less, from a majority of 80%, are too quiet these days…

I’m not racist and I’m not for getting rid of people, who have different beliefs than me. On that note… once you preach hate and destruction for other countries that have let you in (with open arms) to express your views so freely––then, that’s where I have a problem with it! If you don’t like this free country (or any free country), the good old USA, UK, Europe, Australia, etc… you have every right to leave and go back to where you came from.

No one is stopping you from leaving! No one is telling you what religion to believe in, how to dress, how to think, how to drink, how to pray, how to eat, and so on. You have the most basic right as a human being: To Live Your Dreams and Be Happy. But when you start killing innocent people to send a message across that your religion is better than all the others out there in the world… you come off as ignorant and become such a lower life form.

Not human as we know it. A human is capable of knowing what is right and wrong, a thinking, feeling person. Not an animal, ’cause let’s face the facts here… animals don’t hold a candle to the atrocities of man: Nuclear War, the Holocaust, Hotel Rwanda. Maybe they are monsters––but definitely not human beings. Their methods of killing women, children, and men are inhuman/inhumane, whatever you want to call it. Whatever you want to call them––terrorists––murderers––they are cold, blooded killers! And that’s a fact!

Even though there’s a small minority of good muslims, such as the scholars (who are into women’s rights, mathematics, science, and so on) there is a lot of evil in this world. We’ve got Westboro Baptist Church, IS, Taliban, Al-Qaeda, Boko Haram, and Hamas… and tons more cults! These Wonderful Cults of Death, mostly Islamic, will kill you in the name of God and have no shame posting your decapitated head online for all Youtubers to share.


Call me crazy, but this is just a thought…

Maybe this is why aliens from another world want nothing to do with us––with humanity. Any higher life form, more intelligent than our own that live outside of this planet and solar system, will think humans and their religions should be wiped off the map. And I couldn’t agree more… 😐

DIE!Wishing that a giant asteroid (like the one that killed off the dinosaurs) will strike the so-called Religion of Peace. Words are a powerful thing!

One Task Accomplished… 10 Million To Go!

Happy Dance!

I’ve finally paid off all my credit card bills! Yaay! A very Merry Christmas to me!


Tomorrow, I’m going to throw away my old Iphone. I’m actually not really getting rid of it, but I will be getting a new phone and a new plan that will be lower than the one I have now.

It’s all to save some extra money. I’ll be doing nothing but saving, saving, saving from now on. I’ve got no other choice, but I still need to have a phone with me at all times, just in case. Next month coming up, I’ll be looking for another job. Deciding on a lot of things right now. Had a serious talk with my mother and she sees how frustrated I am at work. Nothing is working right for me!

StressI told her I can’t focus on multiple tasks at the same time: it’s either one or the other. I can’t work full-time at a dead end job and edit my novel. I can’t work full-time and make a film. Somewhere along the way, something is going to suffer. The quality of my work will suffer due to stress and everything will go to hell in a hand basket.

She knows I’m a perfectionist. She knows I won’t post anything online, unless it’s perfect. Even seeing the old book trailer for NR is hard for me sometimes, because I know I can do so much better than that. I had done it in a hurry, since I was mad about something––can’t remember what it was, but I made it in like a few hours. I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t do everything on my own!

Directing and writing I can handle, even editing I can do. However, I can’t act to save my own life and I don’t ever want to be in front of a camera. I can’t do everything by myself! One of these days, I’m going to have to hire people to help me––a crew is what I need. My mother believes I can do anything I put my mind to; however, times are hard and I need to be wiser with my money. One thing remains true, I can’t do multiple things at once. I’m not multitasked! I never will be. Enough!

If I want the quality of my work to stay the same, I need to sacrifice something. The only way I’m ever going to finish my novel (s) is if I actually quit my job and focus on them. That’s how I did it for the first novel. I wasn’t working and spent months trying to find an editor and an artist to work with. After all that, I spent at least a month or so, editing the damn thing myself. I woke up every single day at 8 a.m. in Burbank, California (6 a.m. in Eastern Time) and re-read and revised until 10 or 11 p.m. until it was just right.

Even after that crazy month of repeat and rinse cycle… I still found mistakes once I edited it and got the second book proof. The proof that I decided to publish. I was lucky enough to get a third chance to fix whatever mistakes I had––also, Amazon had messed up my cover and that took about a whole week to get that under control. Not to mention, Amazon had my entire book for anyone to read (despite the disclaimer for Mature), so anyone could’ve read my entire book from front to back, without buying it or paying me a dime. I had to call them to tell them to stop that. Now, if I was working a full-time job, do you really think I’d have the time to do that running around? By the time I finished working a 8-10 hour shift, I’d be too exhausted to even call Amazon.

Too exhausted to do diddly-squat. I couldn’t imagine having children of my own: writing a book, working, making dinner, and then taking care of their needs before mine. I’m sure a lot of writers or authors do that––but I’d just drive myself insane. Kudos to those who can raise children and multitask––I’m sure your work doesn’t suffer one bit, does it? You did have to sacrifice something though? Oh right, your needs as well. Unless, you’re rich or have a husband to support you through and through, then you’re probably all right. To the single mothers out there, please don’t give up on your dreams!

ExhaustedA lot of you are probably wondering why I don’t manage my time more wisely. Well, actually I do manage my time… except my schedule fluctuates, so no. I cannot manage my time when my schedule is always changing. I can’t dedicate one hour of editing per day. I can’t dedicate one hour of writing. My mind doesn’t work like that. One hour turns into two, then three, then six hours go by like that. So, there you go. Time management does not work on a perfectionist. Never. 😐 I’ve wasted two hours alone on just writing this post, editing it, spell checking it, saving it, and then perfecting it. And then, I added some more…

I won’t be buying any more comic books for myself––I think I’ve done enough damage for a year. Won’t be wasting my time and my money on junk, only on the things I seriously need to buy, to survive. Food, water, you name it!  I finally have power in my room again. It’s a long story… the power in my room wasn’t working for at least a week, due to a bad outlet. It’s been replaced, so I have light and heat restored.

Sigh...I probably won’t be back to WordPress until February… or until I actually have some good news to report. Or I may return when I finish my trilogy and volume 4 of NR. Or maybe when they’re close to the publishing stages. Then, that’s when I might have something important to say. Haven’t decided if I’ll hang around DA that much. I do get distracted a lot these days and with so much going around, I’ve got my work cut out for me.

I wish things were simpler, but that’s not how life is. My mother says I could take a break off work to catch up on some things, like the writing and what not… and yet with money being so tight these days, I can’t really afford it. At least when I get out of my old cellphone plan, it’ll help a bit with the money. What else could I sacrifice? I still have to pay off my insurance for my car, my healthcare bill, and then there’s the dental every month. That’s pretty much all I’ve got at the moment.

A bit dizzy

There’s so many decisions swirling around in my mind that it’s actually giving me a headache. I’m trying to outweigh the pros and the cons. Should I stay with my job or should I go searching for another?



  1. The pay sucks greatly and it’s not enough to keep me afloat for very long. I’d have to work at two jobs to afford anything…
  2. I feel like my talents are being wasted. Sweeping up floors isn’t the highlight of my day.
  3. It’s very stressful at times. A lot of pressure to be 100% accurate all the time.
  4. No chance of ever moving up in the company. NOT A CHANCE!
  5. Even if I do move to another department, there’s no guarantee that it will be a full-time position.
  6. My schedule fluctuates like the wind.
  7. I’m given no extra training to move forward. I’m not challenged enough.
  8. Too much rivaling and drama.
  9. Too much gossiping.
  10. Too much favoritism.
  11. Have to ask permission for everything: restroom, breaks, change, and so on.


  1. I learn humility.
  2. I learn to be patient. Let’s just say, I was never a patient person to begin with.
  3. I learn how to interact with people from all different types of backgrounds.
  4. I learn how to make new friends and keep some of the old ones.
  5. I learn how to pretty much tolerant almost anything.
  6. And sometimes, I learn how to have fun.

Work!Besides that, I can’t think of anything else.

My Major Tasks Include:

  1. Saving up for the future!
  2. Still have to finish my trilogy.
  3. Still have to finish the 4th book as well. 😦
  4. Still have to look for an editor and then decide if I’m going to hire them. Or not…
  5. Still have to look for another job with a higher paycheck and better benefits.
  6. Still have to make a contract for the artist I plan on hiring.
  7. Still have to decide what kind of graphic novel I’m going to work on.
  8. Still have to edit my novels.
  9. Still have to decide when to publish my novels after I finish them. 😐

Oh! Did I mention, I have to make a list of what I need to make my film projects?



  1. I need money to fund the project and trailers.
  2. I need another camera. Probably thinking of getting a GoPro soon.
  3. Haven’t even bought my editing software. Still researching the damn thing.
  4. Seriously need to find me some actors. Don’t know where I’m going to find them (either online or in real life) or how they’re getting paid for that matter… but I need to find actors who look the part as well as act the part.
  5. Need a location and probably a location scout.
  6. Need a film permit.
  7. Need a crew.
  8. Need props.

I'm dead

Someone please wake me up when it’s all over… or when I’m good and dead.

Almost Finished Re-reading!


I’m almost done re-reading this novel. Total page count is 356, just like the original first book. I’m on Chapter 27. Still haven’t figured out if I’ll keep it the same price range $9.99 or if I’ll lower the price to $8.99. With all the work I’ve put in I don’t know if it’s worth it anymore.


The sequel has 40 Chapters by the way… and I’m so eager to finish, so I can call in quits.


I’ve been at work pretty much all day and I’m just restless. Tomorrow and Monday are my days off and I just want to sleep. Almost missed paying a bill this week, due to such a hectic schedule. It’s just been a crazy nightmare so far. Not to mention, lots of drama and gossiping at work.

There’s just rumors about me everywhere, but I’m too exhausted to care. I’m going to complete the remaining chapters and then I’m going to decide if I should let my sister read this sequel.

In addition, I’ve completed the final book cover as well, including the most important part––the back of the book, which has the story blurb. I just hope it’s interesting enough to hook people into reading it. I didn’t want to give away too much, so I’m praying it works. However, I didn’t want to be too vague and nobody have a clue as to what I was talking about.

Here’s the new summary for Volume 2:

IMAGINE EVERY NIGHT YOU WISH NEVER TO FALL ASLEEP… For once you close your eyes the unthinkable horrors plague your mind, your sanity.

For Zander Russell, Cougar High school is hell. Nothing is going right. Considered an outcast to society, he has no friends just enemies. Until… he meets a man dressed in black, named Rue Chang.

Rue has it all: wealth, happiness, and good looks.  

Zander knows nothing about Rue or his true intentions. Who is he? What does he want? Where does he come from? And why does he keep showing up?

Rue knows everything about Zander’s life, including his family and all his secrets. He claims he can give the boy a better life. Zander is now faced with two choices: trust a stranger he barely even knows or live with his rare condition forever.

Is this too good to be true? And what are the consequences if Zander accepts the terms?

A bit dizzy

It sounds a lot better than the old one. So, I might stick to it or I might tweak it a little before I publish it. Still looking for an editor though. That’ll be interesting, once I get the feedback from my sister first. It’ll be greeat!

Then, I’m going to go ahead with the trilogy and start revising that little gem as well. I think the hardest part will be organizing everything in order. It’s kind of funny, because I don’t know where to start. But it’ll be interesting. I’ve written some extra chapters for the trilogy and the other books as well. We’ll see how it goes. Right now, I need to get some rest. Goodnight everyone!

I'm dead

Character Flaws: More Tragic Than My Main Character?


I’m so close to finishing this sequel, folks.  I really am!


Last night…well, this morning, I stayed up late and completed Act 2. Mostly organizing and editing each chapter for plot inconsistencies. Everything is linear…somewhat. We get a few chapters of the past as well, but there’s enough of a fluid transition to ease right back into the present. Yesterday, I did reach Act 3, but I didn’t want to stop. Some of my friends were telling me I needed to go to bed. 😛 I didn’t listen.

Anyway, I did get some sleep finally. But I’m on Chapter 30 or 31, depending on how it goes. I’ve been on a roll for quite some time, which is why I’m afraid to get started on it right now, since I’ll be going to work soon. I only have a few more edits and rewrites to do, and that’s it. I AM DONE! Regardless of how this one ends, I’ll be moving on with the trilogy and continuing on (or pretending) that I didn’t have a big section break in between.

BrokenheartedOne character that I’m working really hard on, is very three dimensional… is just… I can’t describe it. Just groundbreaking. In three words: heartbreaking, absorbing, and frightening all at the same time. I’m not bragging. I’m trying so hard not to give any details about this one and ruin it for you. I think I really outdid myself with this one. This character I’ve created is just so fascinating that every time I talk about them, I want to find out more about what happens.

Yes, my main character is interesting to… but for once in the story, he’s off to the side. But not in a bad way, in fact, the story still keeps on moving forward. This character will not only be as engaging as the others, but more compelling and sympathetic. The issues they represent or are going through will be a tough one for some people to read. A lot of the plot will be about what I’ve been seeing on the news lately.

Once I finish this sequel, I’ll be putting it away for a month or so….maybe. I kinda want to spend my time editing it next month, and hire an editor anyway. I don’t know if I’ll be competing in NaNo this year. I’ve got two novels I want to finally revise (complete) finish, end, put to rest, get it over with…you get the idea. This month and next. The sequel and the trilogy will be absolutely––definitely completed! There is no going back now. This is it.

ShockingGet ready everyone. It’s going to be truly shocking!

Day 4 of Vac: Snail Progress…

Let me just think...I seem to be stuck on a few things for my sequel…

...and it happens to deal with one of the characters.

Ouch!With all the research I’m doing lately, something doesn’t fit right in this jigsaw puzzle I’m working on. This is going to be a can of worms as soon as I bring this character out into the light. Hope I can manage, especially on my vacation. I’m supposed to be taking it easy, I guess.

So many questions, so little time. Just praying that I can get this book done on time. One thing’s for sure though, once I get all my credit card bills paid off, I’m going to be hiring a few editors and some artists. I want to first finish everything before I do anything else though.

Report's gone..A bit of bad news

Amazon’s kindle lending library program (say that 3 times fast!) hasn’t been working out so far for me. Nothing’s happening and everyday I wait and wait. I’ll keep checking for a couple more days, either before or after, I announce the special ebook sale coming up soon.

I’ll try to monitor it as best as I can. I mostly look at my sales once a week or so, but I may do that once a month instead. I’m just hoping it works. If nothing changes, once the three months are up, I will not bother continuing with it. Maybe when I publish my sequel… I’ll try again, perhaps?